Goodbye

Written 2019 shortly after leaving my home country for an endless adventure.

“Goodbye is a special medicine to the traveler. This long journey is a dive into the undulation of hellos and the goodbyes that wash over, over, and over. Eventually the constant shattering fractals the heart to a fine powder that blows- glistening- into the ocean. You shatter so vastly you're not sure where your love is.

You must find solace not in seeing their smile every day, or knowing you'll see them again, but feel the wind taking your stardust into the Great Cosmos where we are all One, bringing the awareness into every small speck of your whole, newly vast heart.

I love you not because I'm with you, but because you're here in this universe. Thank you for this moment, so small yet so infinite.”

Again

2021

“Hope is a heartbreak

Cracking and defiant

Blooming through dark soil

A dandelion spreading my wishes

Again, again

Then come the bloody crashes

The incompatible soils

Despite it I Know

My tears will become the ocean

Again, again.”

Sewing

2018

“One day I woke up cold

Took a needle and patches of my feelings

The defeat, the angst, the apathy

Sewed it all together

Wove threads of thought

The failures, the confusions, the worry

I made a big coat

Really big, like it went to my toes

Cozy and snug I finally felt safe

So safe, I forgot my woes

Maybe it's just because I took them outside

So there was space for me to breathe

To glow

From within my heart came heat

I thought of my passions, the beautiful madness, the wild sounds that accompanied defeat

All I wanted was to laugh at it all

I grew so hot I threw off my coat

Lay naked basking like a sun

No hunger for anything else

Except a dose of wonder, a sense of ease

And knowing that which lie

Under my skin

Is all I need.”